Well it's two o'clock in the morning and I'm winding down from work before going to bed. So most likely this will be a post full of incoherent thoughts and things that I'll read later and wonder at...
My room is full of toys. It's rather distracting. There are toy cars next to my alarm clock and right now I have the urgh to pick one up and zoom it across the floor while saying brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrmmmmm. However my flatmates are in bed so I will restrain myself.
By the way does anyone know why pages with the corners folded over are called dog earred. They don't look anything like dog ears. And if they have to be ears why dog ears, not cat ears, or pig ears?
He he. Imagine a rooster with ears. Big human ears. Or massive floppy elephant ears.
My mind works in strange ways. On that note I shall stop writing and go off to bed and dream about zooming toy cars across my room.... I wonder what it would be like if I could shrink down to the height of my pinkie finger nail and hop in a toy car and zoom around on the floor of my room. I imagine it would be rather hazardous since my room is rather a mess. Oh right I was going to bed now...
Friday, October 27, 2006
Sunday, October 08, 2006
How do you switch your brain off?
Anyone else ever get the feeling that they want to turn there brain off for a little while because it just keeps chasing itself around in circles???!!!
Here's an example of what I mean:
I want to work as a social worker. I know that one of the hardest things about this for me is that I will probably care too much about my clients. But then I wonder if you can care too much and think it would be cool (for want of a better word) if I could do social work like stuff in some way that I didn't get to go home and leave it all at the end of the day - like if I actually had to live this stuff I would understand all the issues much better. But then I'm faced with the whole issue of burning out and I don't want that to happen because then I wouldn't be helping anyone at all. But then I think about the fact that the people who are actually living this stuff don't get to leave it all at the end of the day. For them it is constant - it is their life. And how can an outsider like me help them? But then I think about the fact that the reason I would be working with them as a social worker is because they can't see any way of changing their lives themselves - and so they need an outsider to help show them other options. But then I think who am I to come along and say the way you live is bad when they may not think so and try and force my way of living/my culture/my thoughts etc onto them when they might be quite happy as they are and when my culture/way of living etc is just as crap as theres just maybe in different areas . And it goes on and on and on... and it's all related, and it all goes in a big circle and I end up back where I started!!!! ARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!
Having said that I still want to do social work like stuff. I'm sure these questions will never fully (or even partially) be answered in my mind. And I know social work is going to be an extremely challenging career. But its still very definitely what I want to do with my life :)
Here's an example of what I mean:
I want to work as a social worker. I know that one of the hardest things about this for me is that I will probably care too much about my clients. But then I wonder if you can care too much and think it would be cool (for want of a better word) if I could do social work like stuff in some way that I didn't get to go home and leave it all at the end of the day - like if I actually had to live this stuff I would understand all the issues much better. But then I'm faced with the whole issue of burning out and I don't want that to happen because then I wouldn't be helping anyone at all. But then I think about the fact that the people who are actually living this stuff don't get to leave it all at the end of the day. For them it is constant - it is their life. And how can an outsider like me help them? But then I think about the fact that the reason I would be working with them as a social worker is because they can't see any way of changing their lives themselves - and so they need an outsider to help show them other options. But then I think who am I to come along and say the way you live is bad when they may not think so and try and force my way of living/my culture/my thoughts etc onto them when they might be quite happy as they are and when my culture/way of living etc is just as crap as theres just maybe in different areas . And it goes on and on and on... and it's all related, and it all goes in a big circle and I end up back where I started!!!! ARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!
Having said that I still want to do social work like stuff. I'm sure these questions will never fully (or even partially) be answered in my mind. And I know social work is going to be an extremely challenging career. But its still very definitely what I want to do with my life :)
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